We've got a secret!

And it's a dosie. What is it you ask?

That's right. We are expecting another Ziglet in February of next year. The cat is not completely out of the bag. We will wait to officially announce this to the world after I am out of the first trimester, so shhh! ;) Since this has always been my so called baby book, I wanted to make sure I tracked my journey again, like I did with Emily. I figured, those who cared enough to read my boring blog, would also support us no matter what happens down this road--rain or shine. Right now we just pray every day that things go as planned.

Tomorrow I will be 8 weeks. I have no doubt in my mind that things are going pretty good, because I am sick. Sick, sick, sick. Like lazy, don't want to get out of bed, but I have to try my best to do so, sick. I feel awful for my family. They have really had to pick up my slack these last 2 weeks or so, and I am forever grateful.

I realize I completely missed Emily's 19 month update. She changes so much everyday it seriously blows my mind. Her words are insane. She talks a ton. She is really outgoing and yet shy at the same time. Over the last month, her schedule has been challenged, and now we are paying the price. It is all my fault. There were times when she woke up crying, and I needed her, more than she needed me, so I brought her to bed. This has started a very nasty cycle of her refusing to sleep in her crib. I mean REFUSES. Last night we tried to Ferber with her. Zig rocked her to sleep. She slept till around 8:45 and then woke up. I tried to rock her, but the second I would try and put her down, she would wake up, so we started Ferber. She cried until midnight and we gave up. It was heart breaking. We checked on her often, but still. I hate to hear my baby cry. So we are doing our best to get her back on track. Recommendations anyone?? Is anyone even out there anymore?? Other than the sleep issue, she is amazing. Yesterday was her first day at her new school with Stephanie and it went great. She had a blast playing out side and especially with Steph's 2 giant Huskies. This was the best decision for us.

Have I mentioned before how amazing my husband is? If I haven't he is. I don't deserve him. Really truly I don't. He is a rock and I don't know how he does it, and sometimes I hate myself for not being stronger to support him more. God is truly challenging us these days. We are a family and nothing will break that, but it has been a very emotional month and my husband has pulled everything together and picked up all the teenie tiny pieces to make sure we are still running. Life is bringing us many changes. Most of you know what is going on, but for those who don't, my father in law has terminal cancer. I cry just thinking about it. He has some amazing days, and he has some hard days. He is so strong. In the end, we don't want to leave his side. We want to spend every waking moment, with him and comfort him because he needs us. And we need him. We love him very very much and we know in the end, it will be ok.

I know that was a lot to get out, but I could not update one with out the other. To end on a positive note, I AM PREGNANT. It seems so surreal, I pinch myself often. This time was much different than the last. Zig and I's limits were really challenged when we were trying to conceive Emily. This time around, well let's just say it was MUCH easier. :0) I am so grateful that I have been given the opportunity to be a mom again. Morning sickness and all. I look at Emily and I know that this is all worth it. Now everyone pray for a boy, because I don't think anyone in my family wants me to go through the 1st Tri again!